New Poem

When you look into my eyes what do you see?

Do you see a gliding blue fish wandering through hoping to get free?

Do you see this other world full of peace and freedom?

Or do you see a world with war, blood and sorrow?

Oh please let me be free please let me get away

I’m sick and tired of all the people pulling me back when I’m fighting to push forward

You see all that you want but deep down you know nothin

The core of your body is who you are and it shines every once in a while

And I’m trying so hard to let it shine right on through to the other side

So I’m breathing fighting just riding the ride

Waiting, anticipating that only chance coming up so fast

it wants you to dance that dance that will be your last

Stupid Life

How can you be so good?

When you walk around acting like you’re from the hood.

You walk with that limp like you’re so cool.

As you sit around watching that girl and drool.

Up and down she goes as your jeans get tight.

While you sit alone in this dwelling night.

This life so stupid and you finally see.

Everyone around you going so free.

you hear that voice from so long ago.

telling you to go back and you finally know.

you’re white no aa

lets go back to the day

when you a normal boy

that acted so coy

you went to school did sports and shit

but you knew there was more so you had a fit

you went off got high joined a fucking gang

went around and did bang bang bang bang

you’re so stupid look what you’ve done

i watched you grow up now you go and have fun

but i know that’s lies

i can see the cries

you asking to come back

when you’re so out of wack

let’s rewind and go back to what we had

that love so true and it’s turned out so bad

part of me wants to love you as well as hate

could this be fake or something like fate?

you come along as I see the new you outside

but i know you just taking this new you for a ride

as you come up to me with that beautiful smile

and i see the old you that’s been gone for a while

than i see your new friends and you change to the new you

you’re not the same and i finally knew

were going a different road

taking off this huge load

and i finally see

I am going to be free

like everyone else in your old life

as your “new” friends take out that sharp knife

bam you’re gone and you were so young

just trying to have a little fun

goodbye to everything that you could’ve had

i wish you were smart and didn’t act so bad

i sit here tonight in this new city

thinking back to you and kinda feel so shitty

I loved you but i gotta move on

to this new life that isn’t like a con

smiling away thinking about the day

when it was so true so real now you’ve gone away

life’s good i think leaning back to sleep

waiting for the next day to start with a leap.

Some Poetry

When you look around you and don’t see or feel nothing

While you watch the clouds around you springing an puffing.

Let’s take a second sit down for a short break

While the room around you starts to shake

You need that white dust that floats to the sky

While you wish you were up there feeling so high

You feel nothing, you’re numb but there’s this deep pain

That stirs so strong sometimes come on please take away the shame

What has happened to this strong wild girl? You feel nothing no more and you feel this sharp driven pain to the core. You look to my changing colors of eyes and see a deep sadness that shows so many cries. It will never go away! NEVER but just take my hand and let me put my head down and stay. I need someone there to help me through this deep mess of things because I feel so blue. You’re there in my mind but not outside. I miss you Oh do I miss you

You fly so high up in the sky, watching down at me being how I be, you love me I love you and even if you're not here I know you are always still near, you're my blood so I'll always have you even if you are in heaven while I am down at the ground waiting to be found. I remember that goodbye it lingers deep inside. It shall be there always and it may make me cry but I know you are happy flying in that sky.

Love is to Lust what you all may think but if you don’t have lust you will never have love Running through space, trying to find that face

When you finally find it all senses are lost

You look in to there eyes seeing those cries

Wondering how you deserve to be with this one

Hiding your emotions just wanting to open up

You can with this one oh how amazing it feels

Just tingles inside as your skin peels

Each peel shows more of who you really are

Its bundled up inside just wanting to hide

There’s a shell all around you but inside something else

This pureness so beautiful so soft to the touch

It’s a pool of warmness just wishing to be free

With you, each shell slowly melts until you see

Flowers all around you and this beautiful goddess

That’s me??? You think... you can’t believe it no way

This whole time I’ve been the lead actress in a different play

never showing my true identity until I meet you my dear

I love you I whisper not knowing what to say

As you grab my hand and smile that smile

I love you too he says as the light shines through

It’s finally free and only because of you.